Internet is BACK

Wow. I feel so alive again being able to blog about nothing.

So I am down and out, very filled up with worries and scheming.

Hopefully, it will be a good day and I can be back on my creative track after all ^^

No Internet

Internet has been down for 2 days now in my house. I feel like im gonna die without being able to scope out photos online and checking out pro ana people's blogs, they're fun reads.

Latest Piece of Inspiration

In light of moving back to New York (right, yay for me), I have discovered something that is mind altering.

I will not share it since it could easily be stolen, but once you see it you will know it was me who did it.

I was completely inspired by this russian sweater. I have a zipper that is this long as well that I bought in New York.

It will be a hit.

Hard Decisions.

They say its hard to live in the city when really it's hard to get to live in the city.

I've had a pretty good offer that I want to take

But I found it hard to turn the cheek

To something else I've grown on for 17 years

Like an appendage removed from you

Handicapped by the negative space

So I simply must say

That I do not know

I know that there are ways

But I can't meet the ends

And I never do

We could never make amends

Wasted months form the downturned brows

Think about the up and coming

The forthwhile surprise

Think of talking and dancing

Remember we never stopped existing

I know you're still there

You know I'm still here

Please leave it be

To know it will get picked up again

Have been watching movies...

Today I sat around the house and watched TV and worked out for about 2 hours.

Now I'm watching Hairspray which I have seen before, but I'm glued to the TV.

I found this amazing nail polish that dries matte. Every color imaginable.

Hopefully I'll be in another city in a few weeks if my life doesn't hate me too much.

I'm listening to Stellastarr* all over again.

Wow. It was such a boring day today.

I could go for a Peach SweatLeaf drink right now with a sandwich from Whole Foods.

Melody Ehsani

so today I was looking at Digs blog and I noticed he always wore this three finger ring. He said it was made by Melody Ehsani. She's persian and lives in L.A. (no shocker there), but I really love her designs and originality and the fact that she went on her own and pursued her design dream. She didn't wait around for anyone to see her eye to eye, she knew what she wanted and she went for it.

I want to do this too, but I am constantly held back by the fact that it would hurt everyone very much if I was to say "I'm dropping you because you've been holding me back from being the person I've always wanted to become."

Like Melody and Diane Von Furstenberg, I want to be a woman who has reached that pinnacle of success that they knew was in them the whole time. Everyone tells me I have it. I see it. Of course, relatives say that too but they don't believe in my school and what it can do for me. And most of all they don't believe in New York.

But I do.

Is that enough? I believe it is constitutionally expressed that no one can deprive you of your pursuit for happiness and that is very much what I am pursuing.

My Etsy

In case you are unaware of Etsy, it's this website where anyone that makes handmade goods or finds vintage goods can sell through this online medium. I have my own Etsy since I love making goods and I probably will see find some good vintage goods later on...